I feel very depressed/guilty about my ex dying?

It's good to not feel 'happy' about a situation like this but beating yourself up isn't going to help anything, in this time i think, even though he wasn't the best man, you should mourn his death, if you're the only one who really knew the 'real' him then who else would mourn him? he was hurt in his life now hopefully he finds peace in death. do not feel guilty, you were one of the few people who Did try to help him at some point, you tried your best and i'm sure he would not be upset with you if he could see the world after his death.i'm not sure what else to say other then to remember that you don't have to deal with everything alone sorry if this didnt help so much ik it's the only answer so far =/ but good luck